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The violent rages started when I was 3.  He would be drunk and if I cried, I got hit; hard.  He was my stepdad, I was supposed to trust him!  He would beat my mother, my brother, and me.  Never his own son, no he would make him watch.  He always apologized, until it happened again.  My brother got older and threatened to tell, that made stepdad angry and lash out on mom and me.  I was always scared; scared that he'd kill one of us.  Mom didn't let that happen though.  She loved her babies, she took the most beatings; but I being so small got injured easier.  He never broke bones, though, that would look suspicious.  I was 6 when mom left him, my brother was 11. Restraining orders were issued against him, immediately.  My brother's has been lifted already, he's 22.  Mine lifts in almost a year.  I'll confront him when it does.  The first thing that I'll do is ask him why he did what he did to us.  Finally, I'd look him dead in the eyes and say "burn in ----." then leave.  Though the violent rages have been done for, for a long time, I hold a grudge.  A grudge that no one will be able to take away.